You knock at the door of every cell in my body. The rhythms of your drums beat to the tune of my heart. This mass in my throat is bigger than I can bear. So close and yet so far. Coming home to myself I know you are there, without language, land, culture, food, music or religion. You are the very essence of me, looking deeply the nature of my true self is also displaced. With each unpeeled layer you heave, sway, surge, roll, pitch and yaw through my being like a cargo ship carrying chattel to the land of the free. Each affliction cast overboard to the sea.
this pain this hurt
tears leak from my eyes
i hear you calling me back
i feel alone
i feel afraid
i feel betrayed
oh how I weep
in the stillness you move through me
the greatest fleet
a yearning I cannot fulfill
what is this desire this craving that I can no longer ignore
After living over 3 years at Deer Park Monastery it is with ambivalence that I must share that I have decided to leave the monastery. While I will still be practicing in the Plum Village Tradition I will seek refuge to receive studies for higher ordination. Though I will miss seeing many of you at the monastery my wish is to further my spiritual expression in new creative and engaged ways. So, I hope that means that I will have more opportunities to practice side by side with you in Sangha. As well as taking to our communities with right effort, sharing our practice of love and compassion in order to embrace and address the sufferings that impact us in our world, our society, ourselves and especially in our Dharma communities. I am bringing with me the gift of spiritual expression that at the core has turned me inside-out. I am coming home and leaving it at the same time. I re-enter to walk the world in a new way. Molting out of this this ever constant illusion. I walk with the courage of all of those before me. Rejoicing coming in to this larger dharma knowing we are on the path together coming from many directions. There is no one way. The way out is in and then out again and then……May I be fortunate enough to continue in this journey with you
We are two nuns who follow the teachings of the Plum Village Tradition. We are hoping to visit your Sangha and to serve individuals and all communities, especially those who would not have access to our basic practices of mindfulness and meditation. This is a new journey for us, so we ask that you follow, encourage and support us in whatever way feels right for you.